Sick and brainless.

Sigh~
When I am sick and alone,I can't help thinking of my friends,and what we use to do at the time right now.
Like i will usually say
"Wanna go eat?"(in chinese)
And my Friend will say
"No money la"(in chinese)


OR

"want to go play basketball?"
My friend say,
and i will usually say it in instant.
"NO WAY, too tired"

And my friend will keep saying that I am not interested in Basketball,say I am a game Siao.

Yeah,I agree the top sentence,but when i agree.that. I keep think the other way.

"I not suit to be their friend"

And when i help them buy something.I will start staring into the air and looking at my hand.
Grip it hard.And I kept thinking.
"Is this body mine to use?Why was i born to make trouble?"
I was a jinx since i was born into this world.

When i haven even Know Qian Jiang,Zhi Cong ,Li Ming

I tend to make trouble at home,Like throwing my Homework to the Dustbin when i was "primary 3"
Ended up going home and bluff my mom that I don have homework to do,till the teacher call my house.
After that, My Parent will start fighting saying that your son ah..this,your son ah that.

At Primary 6,or 5 i can't remember.

I created a big trouble that my house cannot make.(i wonder?)
I used my brother phone to call to those SMS reply msg thing(cost 20 cent each for a msg). and i donno how i ended up repressing it?

when my brother finally off the thing.
the bill come in and printed out"$800"SGD printed out on it.
that cause my Brother not to use Handphone at the age of primary 6 ~to sec 4
And not only that my parent will say"YOUR SON AH..."(both of them)
Not only that.That matter when up to court.(Go ahead laugh)

Also at that age.I didn't have any close friend or friends.And at that time. When the show come out"Digimon Tamer"

and i watched the first episode,when the main Charter.(i wonder if i spell correct?)

Made his Digimon out of draw it to a paper.

I Stupidly copy him. I Draw out a digimon,and hope that it can turn alive?(haha stupid right)
then when i find out that it can't be real, i started picture it in my mind,that i was talking to it
(OMG that time i was wondering did i got depression")

=============================================When i hit into Secondary School========================================

My house was moved from Clementi to Yishun,And I Study at Yishun Secondary School.And my Big brother study at that school few year ago.

I was a STUPID SA.
What an SA?


i like to copy my monitor at primary school.
Shouting at the class to be silence.
And at that point i made Enemy.Stupidly also.

I don know why I have done that? is it cause i want to be outstanding?Frame?(i was bully that time too)

i was still alone that time. Going home straight after school.Helping out the business at home.

Until i met Yen Zuo, follow up by Zhi Cong and Qian Jiang.

I thought i can out stand their group,Becoming a leader?(i wonder)

But the more i want to out stand the more i fall.

but when I fall. Still.They treated me as their best friend. Always.and.Always.

But i didnt see that. Cause i was a stupid idiot.

They started correcting me about the SA stuff.and Something i should not do.Exp.

>Do not make Paper AeroPlane.
>>Do not be an SA.
>> When you caught up in a gang fight with your friend.Never Run alway.

Yeah. I think it something like that.

And Qian Jiang Was a Fan of "Gundam Seed/Gundam Seed Destiny"
And I love that show too. And that how i get to talk to Qian Jiang a lot that time.
(use to play Gundam at his house.Waiting for the new Episode to come out)

And that Yen Zuo.ha.His my rival in MATH,We always fight to get the best score in class.

That was very memorable at Secondary school.

But when each day pass.I climbed up to their head.(i donno why too?)

When i reached Sec 4.I got Jealous about the friendship they make with someone i hate?

I donno Why too?(at this time Jiang will kept say"I DONNO I DONNO,THE ONLY WORD YOU CAN SAY IS IT")

Cause when that someone come into our group.I was like a transparent to them.

Like i wanted them to do something they will pefer that someone way. when that 4 long month pass.
I did something stupid.So stupid that i became a coward running back to them.

But i was really blind that time.My friend still care about me.And they even help me out with the trouble.
After that.I promise myself.If someone dare to say them i sure to shoot that person badly.
but Even i promise myself that.I ended up shooting them agian.

I am really hopeless.

After Sec 4.We are about to head to ITE.
I wanted them to get into Aerospace.
but i am the only one who got the choice to Aerospace interview.
(This part i think i got tell them?i wonder.)(they seem like they donno about it.)
but anyway i just write i down

When i got into the aerospace interview.My friend are posted to Info comm.

I got the test at aerospace.and i rune the interview at my bare hand.when they as me whether i am interested in the course.I say no.And say i only join this cause i want my friend to come in to this course with me.And the teacher there try to ask me to join,and i kept disagree.

If my mother and brother see this they are sure to KILL ME.And I say it,THEY WILL REALLY KILL ME.

And then i changed my choice to Info comm,

when i manged to come in to this course.I was Really happy,but the only thing is i was in a different class.
I used a reason of LifeGuard training to enter the class.and it work.i gotten in to thier class.

But agian i was stupid.

I only hope i get to join them agian. But the more i want.The more i fall(agian)

And the mistake i done to them this pass 7 month was.

>>i Kick Qian Jiang Face(it was an accident.)
>>i shooted Zhi Cong(you come here do nothing,Mind as well stay at home.)Man i was an idiot saying that.
>>shout at Jiang(YOUR MY WORST FRIEND EVER!)

And my jinx power started activate at me.

My worst Fear come true.Which is my Secret expose.
Now about half the class know my status.And i become a Worst friend ever on Jiang and Cong.

When they say that because of them i came into this class.and they want to repay the sin.

I nearly want to say.it isn't your fault.It my fault of asking you guys to join this stupid course.
If not you guys won't get such low mark.

DAm it. but i didn't have to courage to say it out.(how stupid am i)

I am now

>>the Worst Friend EVer
>>JINX THAT Curse every one beside me(but they kept saying Never mind.)
>>worst Son Ever.

When this hit me .I felt that i was best never be born.
I created trouble for my familly member,Friend,
Yet i Fail to even stand up for them,and they alway stand up for me.

I am a Failure for life!

But this think kept repeating in my mind.
And it was Jiang who told me this.
"If you think that other people other worst then you,You will feel better"

Just this word make me kept thinking,
"i am just a normal person"
"just a normal person lucky enough...."

But still....
Never mind?
Till next time ba?

Yeah the word i wrote on top may be "no Link","spelling error" and ton of "bull Shit"
If someone read it?
please just treat this as nothing happen.

It is best that everything go back to the starting point.

Anthony Signing off.